Sometimes I wish I just wasn't;
in any respects of the word.
It's a futile hope,
of conjecture and lies,
to one day be more
than stained tears on my pillow.
I wish to be fiction,
a fly-by night show.
Perhaps a Grace or a Tess,
or even Samantha;
who always seems to get
the best of both worlds, and more.
I want time cuts and edits,
repeats and fast forwards;
anything that can take me
away from the scene,
and into the movie
I know I am meant for.











